Originally Posted 8/6/17
Week 28.... Looking back over this time in my life I realize that today isn't much different then 7 years ago was. I still don't 'fit in'. Yet today I live with that fact openly and no longer try to blend in. In order for me to truly be me authentically I have to be willing to look different and stand apart from so many. I'm more than "ok" with that.
My wish for you is to have a Spirit Brother or Sister who brings the Light into your life when it's just starting to dim. May they temper the Dark Night of the Soul with Love.
Dawn Kiss published a note.
August 27, 2010
Please join me...in the moment
It's been a rough week. Normally I would have this week's Session up by the end of Monday night. Tuesday came, then Wednesday and I still couldn't sit here and write anything. Finally I am able to share my life with you again. I am so grateful for being able to come back into the present. I had revisited memories of my Grandma's attic on Saturday and got lost along the way. My memories brought up old deep wounds to the surface and left me sinking in another Dark Night of the Soul. As much as I know that they are necessary for us to grow, they are not my favorite experiences to have.
Through all of this those old deep wounds that surfaced caused circumstances to happen within my life that normally would never have. There was a lot of pain, a lot of hurt, a lot of tears and a tremendous amount of healing offered to me this week. Where I am now amazes me. It feels as if I have been capitulated towards my future. There is so much that I wish to do and now my Path has been cleared for that to happen.
From being in such a dark place this week I was forced to search out the Light. I found this healing Light in a handful of people who share my life. Two of these people are my brothers. These two wonderful men not only offer this healing to me, but to the entire world. One of them offers healing through our imaginations. If we can see it... we can be it. His book has given me hours of reprieve from the harshness of life... very much like my Grandma's attic. Claude has offered this sanctuary to the world through his book, The Garden. My other wonderful brother has reached out to me and so many others in this life through an Angel who holds us within her love. He offers healing in so many different forms through his Our Weeping Angel Foundation. His healing is offered through Love. Both of them are so deep within my heart that I can feel them with me always.
There are two others who have shown me recently that life brings us surprises when we are least expecting them. My daughter has, only this week, found the courage to come out of her shell and enter into the life that I live by embracing her inner gifts. She has been holding back because this way of life is very intense. I am so proud of her for taking this step forward with me. The other is someone who has been opening up to the things in my world. From seeing him accepting me as I am I have found the courage to tackle those old deep wounds and finally heal what should have been healed years ago. I thank all four of these wonderful souls. I am blessed in a special way by each of them being in my life.
One of the things I realized from revisiting my darkest days is how alone I had been at such an early age. How much I had tried to fit in and how much I simply couldn't. I thank God for my Grandma. I not only fit into her world but a hug was always available to me there. Her outward expression of love and acceptance showed me that the human touch is vitally important for the growth of our souls Every child deserve to heal...every soul deserves love.
I still don't "fit in" in most cases, but I have grown to the point where it really doesn't matter to me anymore. Those who care the most accept me for who I am. All others... I simply offer Love and let God take over the rest. It's a simple life, yet a very intense life that I have chose to live. I can't imagine living any other way.
This week I invite you to meet my brothers and the healing that they offer. I ask each of you to see within yourself that little child inside... see what is needed to heal the world she or he used to live in. Offer yourself the freedom from your past so that you can live fully in your present and welcome your future with an open heart. And if you fall within that Dark Night of the Soul... reach out and take my hand. I will walk through that Valley with you. Know that never for one moment are you alone.
These are my brothers in Spirit, who God has gifted my life with.
Claude's book.... The Garden http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/the-garden/12044889
Jack's Angel.... Our Weeping Angel Foundation http://www.ourweepingangel.org/