Originally Posted 10-29-17
Week 36.... This moment... look and see the gift you are.
I'm going to ask something else of you. Halloween is this week. When you have those little children coming around trick-or-treating ... SMILE when you hand out those treats. You really never know what that mask is hiding. May your smile make a difference in those hearts where it is needed most.
October 21, 2010
Sometimes we question our past. We question who we were and how we came to be who we are now. Even more so, we question "why" we were forced to go through so much to simply get to today.
And when we sit back and look at where we’ve been we see the pains of yesterday. We feel the wounds that we thought were gone. We understand a little more, yet we still hurt just the same.
I tried so hard to behave
I tried so hard to be invisible
I thought it would have been ok
Yet I still feel the pain.
Why me God?
A child is supposed to sleep at night
Not hide in bed in total fright
So tell me now what do I do
To erase these memories of all the abuse?
Tell me why God…why me?
I sit here staring emptily
Gazing out the window…just to see what I can see.
Yet everything looks blank…
Just like inside of me.
Still not healed…God why me?
It’s been so long since I was 10
So much has happened between now and then
Tell me why that pain riddles my life now
Even more…please let me get rid of it…tell me how.
Please God tell me how…help me!
Childhood memories should be carefree
Yet these seem to still imprison me.
What will it take to set me free
From all the hurt you did to me?
Tell me God…tell me!
Oh dear child I know those eyes.
They can not hide the pain inside.
Here you are … this wounded little soul
I understand…I can try to help make you whole
I see now God why me… let my pain help this one please.
Created by Dawn Kiss
Copyright October 2010
I realize why I went through all of the things I did. I understand so much more in life now than I ever could if I had simply had an easy life. As strange as it may sound... I am truly grateful for every experience I have ever had. I am even more grateful that I survived the worst of it and have taken the best of it with me into my Now. It is from this moment...my Now...that I choose to live. I won't allow those old wounds from my past to poison my future. I don't belong there anymore. So once again ... I consciously choose to live. This is what I am asking of each of you this week. To see clearly where you have been.... who you have been... and then turn your sight to this present moment and Honor.... yes Honor... who you are now. For if not for your past ... you would not be who you are now. I see each of you as you are right this very minute. I have to tell you that I have never seen such beautiful Light from so many beautiful souls. Each of you shine so brightly, even if you are not able to see this yourself... I can! I thank you for gracing my life.