Originally Posted 8/6/17
Week 28.... Looking back over this time in my life I realize that today isn't much different then 7 years ago was. I still don't 'fit in'. Yet today I live with that fact openly and no longer try to blend in. In order for me to truly be me authentically I have to be willing to look different and stand apart from so many. I'm more than "ok" with that. My wish for you is to have a Spirit Brother or Sister who brings the Light into your life when it's just starting to dim. May they temper the Dark Night of the Soul with Love. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dawn Kiss published a note. August 27, 2010 Please join me...in the moment It's been a rough week. Normally I would have this week's Session up by the end of Monday night. Tuesday came, then Wednesday and I still couldn't sit here and write anything. Finally I am able to share my life with you again. I am so grateful for being able to come back into the present. I had revisited memories of my Grandma's attic on Saturday and got lost along the way. My memories brought up old deep wounds to the surface and left me sinking in another Dark Night of the Soul. As much as I know that they are necessary for us to grow, they are not my favorite experiences to have. Through all of this those old deep wounds that surfaced caused circumstances to happen within my life that normally would never have. There was a lot of pain, a lot of hurt, a lot of tears and a tremendous amount of healing offered to me this week. Where I am now amazes me. It feels as if I have been capitulated towards my future. There is so much that I wish to do and now my Path has been cleared for that to happen. From being in such a dark place this week I was forced to search out the Light. I found this healing Light in a handful of people who share my life. Two of these people are my brothers. These two wonderful men not only offer this healing to me, but to the entire world. One of them offers healing through our imaginations. If we can see it... we can be it. His book has given me hours of reprieve from the harshness of life... very much like my Grandma's attic. Claude has offered this sanctuary to the world through his book, The Garden. My other wonderful brother has reached out to me and so many others in this life through an Angel who holds us within her love. He offers healing in so many different forms through his Our Weeping Angel Foundation. His healing is offered through Love. Both of them are so deep within my heart that I can feel them with me always. There are two others who have shown me recently that life brings us surprises when we are least expecting them. My daughter has, only this week, found the courage to come out of her shell and enter into the life that I live by embracing her inner gifts. She has been holding back because this way of life is very intense. I am so proud of her for taking this step forward with me. The other is someone who has been opening up to the things in my world. From seeing him accepting me as I am I have found the courage to tackle those old deep wounds and finally heal what should have been healed years ago. I thank all four of these wonderful souls. I am blessed in a special way by each of them being in my life. One of the things I realized from revisiting my darkest days is how alone I had been at such an early age. How much I had tried to fit in and how much I simply couldn't. I thank God for my Grandma. I not only fit into her world but a hug was always available to me there. Her outward expression of love and acceptance showed me that the human touch is vitally important for the growth of our souls Every child deserve to heal...every soul deserves love. I still don't "fit in" in most cases, but I have grown to the point where it really doesn't matter to me anymore. Those who care the most accept me for who I am. All others... I simply offer Love and let God take over the rest. It's a simple life, yet a very intense life that I have chose to live. I can't imagine living any other way. This week I invite you to meet my brothers and the healing that they offer. I ask each of you to see within yourself that little child inside... see what is needed to heal the world she or he used to live in. Offer yourself the freedom from your past so that you can live fully in your present and welcome your future with an open heart. And if you fall within that Dark Night of the Soul... reach out and take my hand. I will walk through that Valley with you. Know that never for one moment are you alone. Many Hugs, Dawn These are my brothers in Spirit, who God has gifted my life with. Claude's book.... The Garden http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/the-garden/12044889 Jack's Angel.... Our Weeping Angel Foundation http://www.ourweepingangel.org/
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Originally Posted 7/30/17
Week 27.... Dark Nights of the Soul.... break the chains that bind your Soul... Embrace the Light... Each of us journey through those Dark Nights whether we want to or not. It is the only way we grow. It is if we allow those Nights to suffocate us that we lose who we are. Yet, if we embrace the Light while in the midst of a Dark Night our Soul is set free to be who we came here to be, who we've always been without the trappings of this world. The hardest thing a Soul does is survive what is placed in front of it to force it to grow. Please.... do not allow ANY Dark Night to suffocate you! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dawn Kiss published a note. August 21, 2010 and the Friday Sessions come to life.... "I pray the Angels are watching over you... keeping you safe and making you happy. This is something I used to hear my Grandma say more times than not when it came to neighbors who were going through a hard time or a child who always seemed to be unhappy. There were even a few times that it was directed at me. Looking back I can see why." This was the beginning of yesterday's session. Today I spent the day within my memories of my Grandma's attic. I felt like that little girl who was so tired of hurting. Grandma's attic has called to me bringing back vivid memories. Come with me... into my memories... into Grandma's attic.... share these memories with me.... "The roof is peaked high in the middle. There is a double bed with an antique quilt on it when you first go up the stairs. I always loved to curl up there and read. My sanctuary... no one hurt me there. Straight past the bed by the window on the right are three secretary bookcases filled full of books. Poetry, short stories, cook books... all kinds. Let's see which one calls to me this morning. How about Blake. He was always one of my favorites... him and Poe. The Raven was my all time favorite. Here is one of Blake's that I used to read as a child. Morbid... yes... but oh so fitting as I had grown up. Never free... always crying... never allowed to simply be a child... never allowed to find joy in life and openly share it with the world.... except for in Grandma's attic. My safe haven... my world where I could live as who I am without being crucified. Come spend some time in Grandma's attic with me.... come see where God set me free." The Garden of Love I laid me down upon a bank, Where Love lay sleeping; I heard among the rushes dank Weeping, weeping. Then I went to the heath and the wild, To the thistles and thorns of the waste; And they told me how they were beguiled, Driven out, and compelled to the chaste. I went to the Garden of Love, And saw what I never had seen; A Chapel was built in the midst, Where I used to play on the green. And the gates of this Chapel were shut And "Thou shalt not," writ over the door; So I turned to the Garden of Love That so many sweet flowers bore. And I saw it was filled with graves, And tombstones where flowers should be; And priests in black gowns were walking their rounds, And binding with briars my joys and desires. William Blake ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ There were two responses to that post back in 2010... Joani Miller -- saddens me....... ♥ ♥ Dawn Kiss -- Don't let it Joani....without who I was...I wouldn't be who I am. Those were dark days for me. Every so often they creep back into my memories...like this time. They dredge up stuff...like this time. I'm almost out of the Dark Night of the Soul that has come this time. Dark Nights need to happen for me to grow. Growth is welcomed...it is a huge part of life. I welcome life. I loved my Grandma's attic...a safe haven...every child...every soul should have one. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ and why am I up at 3:33am? Another Dark Night.... Originally Posted 7/23/17
Week 26..... Who do you see when you look in the mirror? Who you are or are you who you've been told you are? How much conditioning still drips from your life? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Conditioning of a Soul.... August 17, 2010 I pray the Angels are watching over you... keeping you safe and making you happy. This is something I used to hear my Grandma say more times than not when it came to neighbors who were going through a hard time or a child who always seemed to be unhappy. There were even a few times that it was directed at me. Looking back I can see why. Life has gotten away from me. More and more people are walking in my front door and I am seeing some pretty unnerving things. I think the most unnerving for me is seeing just how many people have been conditioned to live a certain way because of their upbringing. Children can be 'molded' into what their parents want them to be. They can be isolated from society. They can be rejected from the family unit even though they are still living within that house. They can be made to believe that there is no way on Earth that they would ever be worthy of anything good or loving. Now you see where my Grandma's words stemmed from. She named this process "conditioning of a Soul". She watched as I was repeatedly told that I would never be anything, have anything or anyone in my life that was any good at all. When she had me alone she would tell me not to believe in those lies. She said that I could be anything I wanted to be, have whatever I truly believed I could, and I would be with the person that I was supposed to be with. Over the years I began to doubt my Grandma. The relationships I had brought a lot of grief with them. So why was I supposed to have them? Simple answer.... to learn. Well now that I have broken the 'pattern' of that conditioning, my life has turned around. I am where I need to be... doing what I love to do, and the people who are in my life are truly meant to be there. Do I have a ton of friends? No. Yet the ones that I do have are true friends. They are truly worth it. So I ask each of you to look at your life as far back as you can remember and see if you have had to endure that "conditioning of a Soul". If you have... please believe me it can be reversed. It takes time and effort and most of all... it takes believing in yourself. Conditioning of a Soul... What is it little one... what do you see? Whatever makes you think that you could ever be free? Can't you see the chains on you? What is it that you think you can do? There is no way to escape your fate. You will always live with an overfull plate. Yours is not to question why but simply to live within the lies. Shattered Patterns Do you really think I will swallow those lies not allowing myself to break the ties that bind me to a broken life that even caused me to be a battered wife? Think again then I say to you! For I am done... am simply through with this hell you have put me through! It is time for me to start anew. Watch me now shed the old breaking out of this disgusting mold. Spread my wings and let my Soul take flight and live my life with what is right. There is no fear where I live now. For I see who I am and how you have tried to crucify me so. Now is the time for you to go! And once you have lost your grasp on me forever and a day will I be set free! This is the time to live the Truth something I should have done along time ago... since my youth! Created by Dawn Ellen Kiss copyright August 2010 May each of you see the beauty that you are... the love that belongs in your hearts... the serenity that longs to be within your Soul. May you believe in yourself as much as I believe in you. For those who have lived this 'conditioning of a Soul'... my heart is open to you and I offer my love and support. It is not an easy path to walk, yet the freedom that it brings is priceless. Throughout this week I ask you to notice what makes your heart sing. Those are the things that my Grandma used to tell me belonged in my life. May your heart sing and your soul smile for all that is brought to you. Many hugs... Dawn Originally Posted 7/16/17
Week 25..... We only have this moment..... waste not one moment trying to be something or someone you were not born to be. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dawn Kiss published a note. August 10, 2010 Please join me... get to know me... We only have this moment ... there are no guarantees in life. Open your hearts and allow all of life to flow inside of you. Waste not one breath. So much has happened in such a short amount of time. With all of the circumstances that have been shared with me this week... I have seen a common thread between all of them. People are starting to realize what is most important in their lives. They have come to terms with the fact that there really are no guarantees in our outside world. We have no control of what is happening around us. We only have control of how we respond and what we feel. The only thing life can not take away from us is our own emotions. Our material world can be stripped from us. Society can 'affect' our emotions, but we can not be stripped of them without us allowing this to happen. I say to each of you .... bask in the feelings you have. All of them! For they show the world just how alive you truly are. I seemed to have gone through the entire array of emotions this past week. Everything from pure joy to such deep anger. Luckily the anger left almost as quickly as it had come. The joy has stayed... even as it was buried under the anger. What I have also seen is that our emotions should not put limits on other people. What we feel ... "we feel". Share what's in your hearts ... yes! Then let others experience what life is bringing them at the time. For this is the only way we can grow... separately and together. To know me... You can see my 'outside' smile. It can hide the pain for awhile. Yet, when all is said and the day is done only I know what my emotions have become. All the world sees my Joy. Would you believe it to be just a ploy to make it through the day alone only allowing the tears to fall when I reach my own home? My heart is full... bursting at the seams filled with heartache, joy and personal dreams. This pain I hold is not my own. These are the tears I shed at home. The pain I feel is of the world from those whose hearts continuously hurl their hatred out to those around them until the day finally ends. And here I am wishing... always wishing I could help to bring an end to all this chaos... to all the anger, hurt and loss. All I can do is share who I am, offer my feelings...my emotions as I am. Is this enough? Some days... no. Yet there is no other way for me to live... this I know. My smile can hide the pain... it's true Look into my eyes as I'm looking at you. There is no hiding what I truly feel. Does this make me vulnerable? Yes... but I'm real. To know me is to read my moods, to share in my emotions, to share yours too. For only through my actions can I bring my feelings alive and it is to this point that I truly do strive. Look deep enough and you will see.... contentment, compassion and the freedom to be everything that is brought to me, to live it fully... to share all of this with you ... with all of you around me. created by Dawn Ellen Kiss copyright August 2010 I ask each of you to 'own' your feelings. Truly experience them deeply. Allow them to show you parts of yourself you didn't even know existed. And if anger does show its ugly face... realize that each emotion has its own time and place to teach us what we need to know. So experience the lesson and then let it go. To live this way is to live from the heart. I stand beside you and open mine wide. For this is who I am and my emotions I can not hide. For me.... living this way... I am blessed with a sense of freedom that I had never felt before. I hope... I pray that this freedom is brought to you as well. Bask in the beauty that you are .... bless the world with your own gifts ... allow your emotions to bring these to us. Many hugs Dawn |
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